Yesterday was our IVF transfer with our donor eggs. We arrived to the clinic at 7:45 to check in. I took my ibuprofen there and the embryologist went over the how the embryos were doing with us. Donna had 11 eggs, 9 of those were mature enough to fertilize, 8 fertilized, 2 didn't make it to 5 days, leaving us with 6. Two of those made it to 5-day blastocysts, and 4 were still growing and can hopefully be frozen today. They recommended transferring the 2 blastocysts (graded 3BB and 5BB) as long as we understood the chances for twins. They were very clear that there is a no return policy! I cried when she was going over everything with us. That's the moment when things were feeling very real, our babies. I dressed and got ready and waited a bit for the doctor. He went over the process and said they are beautiful embryos, and I got into position. He first looked and took measurements of my uterus and lining. Lining was thick and I have a 3 stripe pattern that they look for and said that the meds are working. He asked Gav if he's been giving the meds and we told him the story about the rest stop the night before. He hadn't heard that one before! Then, he puts in the cathedar and waits for the embryologist to bring in the babies in. They waited until cramping was gone for me, and in they went! Everything went smoothly. I cried again and the doctor said he is optimistic, but we need to keep our guard up. He is so honest and understanding of what we've been through. That's what I like about him, he acknowledges that it hasn't been easy making the decisions to bring us to this and he says it.
We went back to our hotel and laid around and rested for awhile. Instructions are to take it easy for 2 days. Then, we went to meet my bff for lunch because she happened to be in town for a wedding. Gavin realized on our way to lunch that he lost his wallet. We're hoping that is our bad luck for the trip. After lunch we headed for home and got back around 6:30. Cramping was gone around 7:00, but was feeling tired and rested for awhile. We went to our friends' who live right behind us for a bonfire last night. I came home after about an hour, Gavin stayed late as he hasn't been able to party for awhile!
So that was our day. Now, it's the hard part, waiting. When we did IVF in 2010 on our own, I was a wreck. We try to forget about that time. For example, I remember crying on New Year's because I couldn't find anything to wear. By crying I don't just mean a few tears, I was a wreck, we barely made it out. I'm hoping this time will be different. Other things in life are so hopefully that helps. The last time was around the holidays, we were keeping it a secret, I was younger, it was rushed, etc. It doesn't help that I'm all jacked up on hormones though.
I think I will take a break from the blog during this time, unless I have something else non-fertility to share.
Now, for thanking all of you, my family and closest friends, and maybe a few readers I don't know. I had no idea when I started this blog and being more open about our plans, how much support and love it would bring our way. Thank you for the text messages, phone calls, emails, cards, "coded" facebook messages, gift cards, inspirational gifts, trips for ice cream, wine nights on the deck, and prayers. It's getting us through and we know however things turn out, you will all still be here to get us through again. We do feel a part of our life is missing without children; but we do know how blessed we are. THANK YOU!