Saturday, September 14, 2013

One Year Anniversary and 100 Posts

This is my 100th blog post.  Seems like just yesterday that I was writing my first post and writing an email to my closest family and friends inviting them to read about our journey.  It's been quite the journey and I'm so glad I decided to document it here.  I hope you've enjoyed the story!  For my 100th post, I'm writing an anniversary letter to my little Bayden, 1 year together.

Dear Bayden,

One year ago today on Sept. 14th, I became a mom.  That's the day I started taking care of you.  One year ago, your dad and I were in a doctor's office holding hands and waiting for the doctor to bring you to us in a tiny catheter.  There I laid praying so hard that this time would work.

You have been such a fighter since before that day.  At this time a year ago, you had been growing in a dish for a five days.  You were the best embryo, the most cells, the fighter.  You were making it.  The doctor transferred you and a sibling to me that day.  You were strong, you found a comfy spot to attach and grow.  I had a scare a few weeks later with cramps and bleeding.  I cried on my way to the doctor's office for an ultrasound, but there you were on the screen with a strong heartbeat, a fighter.  We were so happy and relieved, but we knew then that our other baby didn't have a heartbeat.  For the next 30 or so weeks, I loved having you inside me.  I loved being pregnant and feeling you grow inside me.

Then, you'd had enough on the inside and were ready and you arrived quickly to the outside world.  Your first 43 days weren't easy and I hated being apart from you while you were in the nicu.  You were a fighter during that time too, a bit dramatic though.  Now you are home and doing great.  You have made me so happy this past year.  I love seeing you grow and do new things everyday.

One year ago, you were just a few cells inside me and today I heard the cutest giggle from you.  Can't wait for more giggles.

Love, Mommy